Father's Heart

I woke Andrew up at 8am after sleeping for 11 hours. Usually he wakes up smiling and so happy. But this morning he just put his head up and smiled once and put his head down again. Thinking that maybe he wasn't fully awake, I brought him over to my bed to play with him for a little bit before going to work. While driving to work, Betty took his temperature and said it was over 101. Then later in the afternoon, it was up to 102.6. Andrew wasn't himself. During the afternoon, he wasn't flipping over, smiling or kicking his legs. After taking another temp, it read 102.7. And this is when I came home and we took him to the ped office. The ped said that there is a virus going around and he might have a fever for the next day or two, but when I see how tired and lethargic he looks, my heart just breaks. I can't stand to see the little guy so tired and unmotivated to do anything. Usually when we put him down, he flips over right away. But all day today he didn't move much. Right now he's in bed with his thumb in his mouth sound asleep. He's still burning up and hot all over.

I can't stop thinking about him. Is this how our parents feel when we're hurting or sick? Am I finally understanding our heavenly Father's heart for me? This is a whole new territory for me. The way I feel for Andrew is different from the way I feel when Betty or my parents are sick. I'm still learning to love my son in a different way. I don't know if all this makes sense but for now I just want his fever to go down and be himself.

Happy 7th!

Happy 7 month birthday! Andrew turned 7 months old 3 days ago on the 15th. I can't believe my son is this old! But I'm sure I'll be saying this when he turns 8 months, 8 y/o, 18 y/o, etc. This past month (since my last post) he's grown so much. He's now a master in turning over from his back to belly. He moves around non stop and is constantly trying to grab things and put it in his mouth. He's a little slow developmentally due to his girth but that's okay. I don't mind that he's not crawling yet because that's more work for mommy and daddy if he's crawling all over the house.

It's been such a joy raising Andrew. If all babies are like him, I think we can raise 5 of them at a time. Betty and I were trying to remember when the last time we heard him cry. I think it was on his 6 month appointment when he got 4 shots. I think I would have cried too. Before that I think it was at 5 months when we were driving home from small group at midnight and he was really tired. I hate to brag but I will about my son. He sleeps 10-12 hours a night, straight without waking up. He slept 12 hours last night. And when he does finally wake up in the morning, he doesn't cry or fuss. The first thing he does is suck his thumb and just lay there until he's fully awake. Then he gets on his elbows and picks up his head to look at the mobile. Then he turns his body towards the door and just waits there until Betty or I finally get to him. What other baby does that? And during the day he takes 3 two hour naps and eats 5 times a day without a fight. If we have to do something around the house, we just leave him in his jumperoo or his playmat and he can play on his own for up to an hour before he asks for us.

We're so blessed. We really think Andrew is the way he is because he gave us such a hard time when Betty was pregnant. We thank God every single day for our precious gift. Thanks God! =)