1st Major Accident

This happened yesterday.

We were coming back from swimming at his cousin's pool going back to their house when all of a sudden he tripped on an uneven pavement and fell straight down on his face. I was busy getting Emily out of the car seat when I heard him wailing. It took him some time to calm down but eventually he did. Most of the cuts were superficial except for the one over his left eye. There's a little gash but we were told (by a ER md friend) that he won't need stitches. He's been saying "ay-yah here" all night and this morning. Ay-yah means boo boo in Korean. It was especially sad when he first saw himself in the mirror last night and was so shocked to see himself so bruised up. His lower lips started to quiver and was on the verge of crying. Thankfully he composed himself and took his bath.

When I first saw his cuts (and many hours later) I was so upset/angry/sad for him. I'm still sad/upset but not as much. I really wanted to blame someone/something but I couldn't. I couldn't blame the Crocs, the uneven pavement, or Andrew running when he was so excited. I couldn't blame any one person but I couldn't because it really wasn't anyone's fault. Would blaming someone have helped? Maybe. I need to accept that this happened because Andrew is a 3 year old full of energy. These things happen. I need to accept that I can't protect him 24/7 even though I see him pretty much 24/7. I have to remember to trust Andrew in God's hands. He was a miracle baby (as all babies are) and I need to remember that God will continue to protect him. His cuts/bruises/swellings will go down and will eventually go away. Until then I will continue to baby him and let him have his Nick Jr. marathons.